Maybe if you can remember your past, the past of abuse and suffering but as you awaken and choose a positive outlook on your life, you realize that your past has been a part of learning and you develop a new tool added to your past and gratitude to the lessons you received. You realize that your choice, the choice of your soul to come into this life and choose the plan for these lessons and you realize that you learn these lessons and your past was beautiful, as beautiful as your present and your choice for your future to be beautiful as well.