An interesting example of unusual emotions is Sheldon in big bang theory series. He is portrayed as human with overly developed logical mind and underdeveloped emotions and empathy. I suggest study the series well. You can learn much from Sheldon about our emotions. I learn from him how to control emotions and how to change my mind quickly. His self-confidence is adorable. Much of our limitation comes from lack of self-confidence. We rely on approval by peers and superiors to sustain our self-esteem. When we are not approved, our self-esteem goes down and our energy goes down. This is one of the reasons many people remain in mainstream and are strongly attached to their peers - they need their self-esteem to be constantly recharged by admiration and approval. This is why it is hard for a human to be a dissident and to have alternative culture and life style. Learning from Sheldon allows me to short circuit the need for approval into self-approval and self-admiration. This is often obvious to outsiders. This is one of the reasons David Wilcock and Steven Greer are not fully trusted by public W it is rather visible that bot short circuited their need for approval into self-approval and self-admiration. Many leaders and scientists do that. This is one of the tools for survival for independent thinkers. Making this self-admiration less visible to outside world is an art. Say Einstein and Dalai Lama are known as being humble. Still they are capable for bold actions which go against mainstream approval. Andrei Sakharov was an alternative thinker and yet was humble in many ways. There are many good examples to learn from.
Mainstream culture uses emotions to keep people under control. We are taught to repress our emotions. For example, in preschool and in school, the children are taught to repress their positive and negative emotions. They are taught to behave well according to standards. One of ways of repression in Russia is to violate human physiology: children are restricted from eating and using toilet when they want, their movement is limited, babies are wrapped tightly to restrict their movements. Often children and adults are forced to stay in rooms with bad air. These are places for waiting. In Russia, the life involves much of senseless waiting. When children are forced to wait, they are often prohibited from playing and exposed to expressions of negative emotions. In Russia people often share negative emotions, they poison others with expressions of negative emotions. There is a correlation of the negativity of emotions with cultural development. Most refined are alternative pockets of the society where love is strong and the mainstream culture is replaced by positive alternative culture. Some of new age groups are loving and warm, some of other groups of people are loving and warm. There is no easy rule how to find those. If there were, they would be destroyed by mainstream. I am always sensing the air, always on the lookout for good people and groups of enlightened people. You can sense them by positive emotions and lack of negativity. This positive outlook is imprinted on faces. We can read faces, many humans do. Unfortunately, these days, in Russia many faces show the imprint of negativity. There is much hatred, low vibration and negative egotism in imprinted on faces. Even faces of nice people often bear the trace of suffering. Yet, some faces and some people stand out as loving and kind.
I find much more nice people in America. These would not necessarily be open to friendship, but at least they are nice. There is much more people with moral integrity, more loving people, less people with criminal outlook on life. Children are treated much better in America. This was a major reason for my family moving and remaining here. Children are treated with much more respect and love. Children grow up freer. They are not afraid to play, feel that they are loved enough to go ask going to toilet when they want to. This is a great indicator of inner freedom. There is much more dignity in children.
Respect for children is somehow correlated with income. Wal-Mart is one of the cheapest stores. Very often in Wal-Mart I see a mother with children which fight each other verbally. Typically a child would be crying loudly and a mother would either ignore her or speak to her angrily. This negativity is affecting me much. It is hard to escape it. I find it impossible to disable my hearing. When I try, my ears become sick and infected. The only way to disable hearing for us is to wear headphones with music. Thanks god, now it is a norm to be wearing headphones with music and people don't mind - in public places or at work. This gives me more inner freedom.
I am very affected by disapproval of others, including strangers in public places. Often after being hated by people I feel sick. It is called bad eye. Most people don't believe in it but I often observe the effects of bad eye on myself. Worst was when I worked with angry bosses. Then the emotional pain was very strong and resulted into a physical sickness. Part of my suffering was inability to change a job. Not having a job was also not an option. My family depended on me and to stay in America I had to be employed. This was a lack of freedom and it made me feel trapped. Feeling trapped is another negative emotion.
I will generalize here. We are designed in a way that our logical mind is supplemented with emotions. Emotions are typical behavioral stereotypes. Emotions are substantially independent of logical mind and many people find it difficult to control emotions. Emotions allow us to compensate for low processing ability of our logical mind by offering us packaged stereotypic behaviors. This way much of our thinking and behavior is automated and still allow for some variety. Mass culture supplies many stereotypic emotions to people. These are picked up by individuals from peers, teachers and movies. Movies define emotional life of mainstream culture. There is no other way to change human emotions other than to change movies. American movies are spreading American emotional culture to the rest of the world. Some of the emotions are transformed in translation, but some get through.